Break Down

I am not reporting my weight right now because I am so ashamed, scared, depressed, miserable...you name it. I have actually gone looking for a therapist that specializes in food addiction and low self esteem. I have finally hit rock bottom and don't know where to turn. I need help. This blog, dieting, friends and family...it's just not working. I need to figure out why I turn to food in the first place. Please help!