I'm Back

Down 16 lbs, 1 Pant size and people are finally starting to notice.  It is good to be back on track.  I feel great and have been working out too.  It's been too long since I've posted on here.  I've been journal-ing my diet issues on Fitday.com to myself.  I will try to post on here once a week as an additional support system.  I just haven't felt like I have needed it.  

One Week

I'm down almost 10 lbs in 7 days.  Of course this is basically the same 10 lbs that I had dealt with before the holidays, except the last few, but still I'll take it.  Back on track. 

Sad, but Butter

It's sad that I've been neglecting the one blog that could help me stay on track with my health.  But I'm here now.  I did gain a little weight back over the holidays, but not as much as I would have in the past.  So I consider that somewhat of a success.  I'm on day 3 of back on track.  Trying to get over bronchitis and ear infections, so I'm still taking it somewhat easy on activity in general.  Light house work, taking care of kids and only necessary work (baking) stuff.  I'm hoping to be back to normal by this time next week.  Just in time for our X Box Kinect (a Christmas gift) and Just Dance 3....I'm going to dance my ass off!  Literally.  You just wait.  I did my measurements and before pictures 2 days ago.  I am going to do new measurements every two weeks and new pictures I think once every month or two.  I will eventually post them...pictures, not measurements.  I'll just give you a total loss of measurements, but no way in hell is anyone going to know my true ass size.  I haven't weighed yet this morning, but yesterday I was already down 5 lbs of water weight for my first day back on strict Primal.  I am eating more dairy right now than necessary, but just to get me back into the swing of things.  I will slowly wean myself to just 1-2 small servings a day...because I refuse to live without butter and cheese.  That's just no way to live at all. 

Down 4 up 1=back down the 3!

Of course it all came off within a day or two!  I have lost 16 lbs (still, total), down the pants size, feel good and have been sleeping better too!  It is a slow process but I am okay with that this time.  My goals are more realistic than they have ever been.  I am planning on it taking at least a year to get all of this weight off.  I'm exercising more because, get this....I want to!!!  I've been making it fun and actually have been craving movement.  People have started noticing that I'm looking better and that helps fuel the drive to continue.  I'm doing it for me, but it is nice that it is finally starting to show on the outside too. 

Emily, I have no doubt that you can win this battle once and for all.  You are on the right path by changing your habits that have nothing to do with food first that are keeping you unhealthy.  I'm proud of you for doing that!  It helps me to see you changing those habits and makes it easier for me as well.  You can do this!!!! 

Jonesie, you make me laugh.  I hope you and your family are well and that you are feeling good!!!!  Stay away from the fucking cupcakes!!!!!! They will only cause you grief, heartache and pain!!!! ; )

Up 3!

I'm up 3 lbs after drinking a lot of beer with my little brother and his frat brothers over the weekend.  I partied like Bret Michaels and gained weight like Kirstie Alley.  Oh well, I had a blast and I'm sure my sausage fingers will be gone in a day or two.  Back on track and feelin' fine!

New Low!

I've hit a new low...lowest weight since this time last year, that is!!!  It has taken me a year of on again, off again, but I finally have lost enough that I'm the lightest I've been in one year.  I have a long way to go, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel.  It may take me two more years to get this weight off, but once I do it will never come back.  That isn't me being overly optimistic.  That is me being realistic because I know, now, what it takes to keep it off, what works for my body and how food affects me both physically and emotionally.  I highly encourage anyone that is trying to lose weight, get healthy and feel better to check out the Primal Blueprint.  Go to  http://www.marksdailyapple.com/  and read all about Primal living.  It makes sense.  We love it!!!!  Good luck!  I am down 16 lbs in 5 weeks.  And one pant size!!!!  Feeling good!!!

Holding...

Holding steady at 16 lbs.  My clothes are fitting a bit better.  I've been working out doing fun things....turning on the radio and dancing with the kids for 20 min. at a time, lifting weights with my husband, taking the dog on short runs and long slow walks, chasing my kid around the yard and dancing with friends (although this usually involves drinking...).  I've just been trying to incorporate more fun into my life to get my stress levels down and get exercise at the same time.  It's working.  Slowly, but surely, it's working.  : )

Slumpy

I'm here.  I just don't get a lot of time to post anymore.  I am down a total of 15 lbs since Aug. 8th.  It's coming off a little slower than I would like, but I feel good, so I can't complain.  I still hate myself but I'm at least in control for now.  I've been in a slump of sorts too, so I feel ya, Jonesie!  Everyday is the same.  But at least there isn't a lot of drama right now.  I'll try to check back in tomorrow.

Stupid

I've been gone from the blog....and when I'm gone from the fat blog it usually means that I'm not doing so well.  This past week has been bad.  Really bad.  Every time I lose and get to a certain point, I gain it back within a few days.  I have an out of town trip starting today and I get back on Sunday.  I'm going to get through the weekend of southern fried food and start, once again, when I get back. 

Detox

Yesterday of detox (Sunday was a bad food day) went really well.  I feel better already.  I'm not at my goal that I set for myself this week but I will get it adjusted soon.  My only pair (that fit) of black dress pants snagged and got a hole in them on Saturday night (thank God I made it home before this happened!) but we don't have the money for me to go out and replace them right now.  So I'm going to literally work my ass off to fit in the size smaller that I have before another dress up even occurs.  It's totally possible!  They say around 10-15lbs a pants size....we'll see if that's true.  It should hold up because they were getting a tiny loose anyway....so here's to shrinkin so that I have something besides my 1 pair of jeans to wear!!!!!! : )

Huge

Ate like a COW yesterday. : ) Actually I did eat a lot but swam and wrestled in the pool with the boys for 3 hours.  I am sore today so that tells me two things....1) I'm old.  2) I was using my muscles and getting exercise.
The scale is up 4 lbs from yesterday morning.  I'm about to start (yuck!) and I didn't drink much water yesterday for how active I was.  Back on track though.  Feel good, a little bloated but still in the right mind set.  Will let ya know how it turns out.  And thanks for the encouragement Jonesie!  I am good at this! : ) And you are too.  Just stay the hell away from the nuggets!!!  There should only ever be two nuggets in your mouth and they have no calories! ; ) Way too crude?! : )

Same ole sh*t!

Still the exact same...I have nothing new to report.  Haven't changed anything and I think it's too early for a plateau so I'm just going to continue to do what I'm doing.  I feel good and I'm not stressing about food or my weight.  It'll come off eventually...

Cancelled

My Weight Watchers account finally ended today.  I had cancelled awhile ago, if you don't remember, but it was paid up until today.  I miss it already.  The good news is that when we can afford for me to go back on it my husband's job gives a discount to, not only the employees, but their spouses for joining Weight Watchers.  30% off registration and monthly dues is nothing to scoff at!  I'm super stoked since I plan on joining WW again as soon as we can afford it, simply for the etools and tracking my food and activity.  I love it and highly recommend it.  The etools do more for me than attending meetings.  I can live without those.  I am still in the same spot that I was a week ago, but I can feel my body changing since I've been working out 6 days a week.  I have tons of energy, pants are fitting better, I'm getting some definition back in my arms and my face and boobs are getting smaller.  I want the # to go down, but I'm trying to not put as much emphasis on that at the moment since I'm still down 14 lbs for 2.5 weeks.  That's nothing to scoff at either.  I'll report back later if there are any changes.  Good luck to everybody struggling, this includes me.  Everyday I struggle.  Everyday I want it more.

1 to Go...

I'm down another 2 from yesterday.  I have 1 lb of the 6 then I'm back on track.  I hate how this works.  Work my ass off for little, don't try at all and it all comes back.  Where's the happy medium?

6 lbs

I actually went up 6 lbs!!! How is that even possible?  My hands are swollen, I didn't poop (sorry, TMI) yesterday and I didn't get enough water, on top of the greek salad, which I don't think was the biggest reason of all, but still....

I've already had 2 fruits this morning and hit the water.  I know this isn't true weight, but I almost passed out on the bathroom floor when I saw the # on the scale.  I know I'll be down at least 3 of it by tomorrow.  By the end of the week I will have dropped that 6 and down at least another 2 true lbs.  I'll keep you updated on my progress as usual. 

Holy Crap!

I went down 3.2 lbs from yesterday!!! I was so amazed/confused/flabbergasted that I kept moving the scale around the room thinking it was off balance, or something...anything but the truth.  I weighed, like, 6 times all over the house only to have the same # keep coming up!  I'm completely stoked.  It's funny because the etools for Weight Watchers (which expires soon since I ended my membership) advised me that I'm losing weight too quickly and that is unhealthy. 

Bullshit. 

I've talked to both of my Dr.'s about that and have learned a bunch watching Biggest Loser and reading health books that says it's okay to lose weight quickly as long as your body is getting the nutrients it needs, your not doing it by starving and you get enough exercise and rest.  I'm doing all of these things.  I eat when I'm hungry.  I stay away from processed foods.  I walk on the treadmill everyday.  And I do my best to get at least 6 hours of sleep a night.  In 8 days I have lost about 13.6 lbs.  (give or take an oz.)

I'm finally back in control and not thinking about food all the time.  I eat to live, not live to eat.

Same

I'm the same as yesterday.  A little disheartened but not devastated.  I know second week is always hardest and results small.  I will be fine.  Just a little stressed today.  Looking forward to going out tonight.  I wasn't really in the mood to drink, but now after getting news that Aiden is losing one of his jobs and therefore a good chunk of income I want to drink and dance the stress away.  : ) I'll let ya know how that affects the ole scale.

10lbs of Sugar

I've lost exactly 10 lbs in 1 week.  I'm happy, feel healthy and actually looking forward to continuing Brenda's diet.  It has gotten a lot easier after doing it for several days so it's just keeping up with that trend and not thinking about how long it'll take.  By the time school starts again I would like to be down 30lbs.  It's a realistic goal as long as I stay strong on Brenda's diet the duration of the summer.  I've done it before I can do it again.  And when I lose all of the weight I feel I need or want to, I am going to go back to Weight Watchers as my maintenance plan.  I love Weight Watchers, it's just not fast enough for how bad I feel about myself.  I want quick for now, and lasting for when I hate myself less.  Weight Watchers will allow me to maintain and live.  Brenda will get me there quicker.  And of course I'll keep you updated!

Tuesday!

So the long weekend is over.  I treated myself last night to a Fiber 1 bar...yeah, that's a treat.  I love them.  And a fudge bar...love them too.  I went up 1 lb on the scale, but am back in full force today.  The biggest reason I actually allowed myself the treats last night was that for 1) I was in the mood and didn't want to deprive myself. 2) there are worse things than fiber bars I could want 3) I am starting conditioning all over again today because now that I purposefully put sugar back into my body I need to get rid of it and I'll keep dropping weight quickly. 
That's my plan for now.  Condition almost all week, have a treat and condition all over.  For awhile it will keep my body from feeling starved and I will lose quicker.  I'm also getting ready to walk on the treadmill for an hour! Can't wait.  Just me and my IPod, baby!!!!  : )

Happy to say...

that I had a fantastic weekend without blowing diet! I'm hoping to get below a certain # this week.  Will keep you posted...not that either of you care because I'm such a b*tch!!!! ; ) That's okay, I can live with that.  One day soon I'll be known as a skinny b*tch...or at least a less fat b*tch...whateve.