What's up

Ladies, what's going on??? I realize I am one to ask. But, I'm asking. I'm not doing great with weight. I am trying to survive the last two weeks of school. But I am missing you guys. You at least made me feel guilty for NOT dieting to my best abilities!!! Jonesie..come back!!! and Elle, don't give up... we started this thing right? We can do it. I will check it and post every pathetic day. Sorry for being such a bad blog buddy! To show you how sorry i am and disgusted with myself too....I weigh 216. ugh. I said it. Now I need to change it.

New Day, New Attitude

I'm over yesterday.  It does no good to dwell on the fact that money is tight and I'm fatter than I want to be.  I've gone down 1.2 of the 2lbs I was up from the weekend.  I'm getting over my sinus infection, have an appointment with an ENT (Ear Nose Throat) to see why I get them so much, and I'm looking forward to celebrating this weekend with my family, my brother's 21st birthday and sister's college graduation.  I'm focusing on all of these things instead of possible sinus surgery (Dr's words, premature tho, not stressing too bad) lack of money to celebrate with and still being in fatter clothes than I would like.  It'll all work out.  And at least today I feel up to doing laundry, dishes and cleaning floors while the kids are asleep.  Will be the first time in a week that I feel like it.  I still did it, but not as often and with no zeal whatsoever.  I'm watching my 3 nephews tonight, too, so that should be fun.  I'll let ya know what the scale says tomorrow. 

Bad Day

I'm having kind of a bad day.  Not terrible, or even tragic, just one of those days that have you down.  The biggest reason is that I cancelled my membership to Weight Watchers this morning.  We are having issues with money thanks to underestimating throughout the year what we owe in taxes and having it catch up to us now.  We pay quarterly.  On tax day we shelled out $3200.  June 1st (because of the way it falls for us reporting) is a new quarter and we owe another $1600.  This has drained our account to the point that we are paying our bills, keeping Frederick in Krav because he loves it, and doing nothing else for the rest of the summer because we lose my income due to me watching teacher's kids.  The baking will sort of supplement but the first yr of any business is usually the one that you lose the most money due to set up....which we are.  It'll work out.  I'm just bummed right now.  I was doing so well with my new plan in place.  I can and will still do well.  It is just going to take a little more work and dedication.  I will lose another 2 lbs by this time next week.  I am still 2 lbs up from the weekend but it is coming off, slowly but surely. 

Elle (per your request)

Get a more interesting life....
: )

Been there, done that!

Okay, well I was going to title a post All by Myself...but apparently I did that already.  Which means that I am, once again, all alone on this blog.  WTH?!?!?!  Where is everyone?  I'm sick, have a billion kids I'm watching, baking for business, running kid everywhere after school, making dinner, cleaning house, playing with dog and bitching all at the same time, so if I can do all of that,( I know you're all just as busy) but you can write 1 line telling me to get a more interesting life and to fuck off at least!!!!  Btw through the midst of all that I do everyday I'm still fat.  Yet one more thing I manage to do...

Monday

So as of yesterday morning I was down exactly 9 lbs in 9 days.  After splurging, eating all my pts plus almost all of the extra for the week, I am up 5.4 from yesterday! : ) Total water weight due to sodium and all the other junk I ate, but I still made better choices yesterday than I would have in the past.  So, I'm back on today, in control and not worried about shedding all of yesterday's gain.  I feel good.  I know all of this past year's weight is possible to get off.  I just have to be diligent and patient.  Here's to another fabulous Monday...(insert sarcasm, because I hate Mondays and they are going to be exceptionally tough to get through for the next 3 weeks.  And I have a sinus infection...again! Suckish.  Fill you in tomorrow. 

Somethings wrong...

Not sure what but trying to figure it out.  So, I hoped that if I wrote it down then I would "get" it and could attack it. 

I am tired. OVER tired.  Not because I can't sleep but because I am tired. I have KONKED out the last 2 nights to the point I don't hear a soul.  And I usually am easily wakened.

I am jittery.  Not sure if it's because I am low sugar or what but that's what it reminds me of.  I am actually feeling like I will vomit if I eat sweets.  I am not craving them at all. 

I am dizzy. I am exhausted. I am sleepy. I am shaky. And I feel sorta sick to my stomach.  All I want to eat is a chef salad. 

What's that sound like? 

Wondering what's wrong with me here... Jonesie....