Friday, October 8, 2010
I am at 212.8 because I freakin ate chix noodle soup last night. I was perfect all day but my throat hurt so bad so I broke down and ate the damn soup! 0.8 lbs UP because I'm effing sick, trying to be good and pretty sure God hates me!..
Thursday, October 7, 2010
We'll muddle thru this together! Glad you are feeling a little better and ready to jump back on the wagon (or train, or horse, whatever). I went back up to 208.4, I think it had something to do with not enough water. Whatever. Keith is down to 200. He says he'll probably be 195 by next week. I hate him.
Feeling better today. I am back in diet mode and staying away from sodium ridden chix soup. I bloated to a wonderful 212 and I hate the diet Gods for making me fatter while feeling sick and not getting to eat anything great and fatty. Oh well, I am doing the best I can for now. I have faith in myself that I can succeed...no matter how long it takes, how many times I fall off the wagon or am tempted by wine. At least I have my health back.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
207. I am less than before. Thank god. I have a week and a half left (paid) on the "diet". Then I am taking a week off. Then I think I am going to pay again. 10 more weeks. But I am going to give myself ONE WEEK! I know this isn' t the right mindset to have when it comes to dieting, but this is where I'm at. Maybe I should spend more on a psychiatrist and less on a dietician!
Still not feeling great but I am doing better than yesterday so I'll go with it. I have not weighed but I've been living off of home made chix noodle soup Scott brought over. It's a nice change for someone to bring me food instead of always coming over to eat mine. I'm completely bloated from all of the sodium from the soup. If I had to guess at my weight I would say probably 212 give or take (or just give 5 lbs). I will weigh tomorrow and check in. It's not even motivation at this point that I need. I'm ready to pick back up where I left off I just don't have the energy to cook. I physically just don't have it in me. Today is better. So I am going to stick with the soup for another day, drink lots of water and swallow as many vitamin C's as I can without overdosing. Emily I am proud of you for sticking with this though it has been slow. Keep it up.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Well, Elle is in need of encouragement! I blew it this weekend too. But, oh did food taste good! Monday I was back to 212. Ouch. Tues. I'm at 210. I'm hoping to be back at 208 tomorrow or Thurs. I am sick of shrimp, steak, and chicken. I know, I know, that sounds like food fit for kings right?!?! Well, not when it's the only thing you can eat, without bread, butter, or any other fatty delicious thing. On the bright side, even though I cheated this weekend, I actually looked forward to eating healthy and found myself throwing away half of my food uneaten. Good sign, I thought. Maybe I am finally getting the concept of enjoy the taste of your food, don't inhale a whole pound of it. Less is more! Three little words that pack so much power!!! (Unless you are talking about wine, in which case those words DO NOT apply!)
I'm sick and the only thing I want right now is soup. Anything hot and liquid. I was doing really well with dieting and now I have no clue where my weight is. I don't give a shit right now either. I just want to be well. I will worry about the scale when I can stand without being dizzy.