Thursday, May 5, 2011

Somethings wrong...

Not sure what but trying to figure it out.  So, I hoped that if I wrote it down then I would "get" it and could attack it. 

I am tired. OVER tired.  Not because I can't sleep but because I am tired. I have KONKED out the last 2 nights to the point I don't hear a soul.  And I usually am easily wakened.

I am jittery.  Not sure if it's because I am low sugar or what but that's what it reminds me of.  I am actually feeling like I will vomit if I eat sweets.  I am not craving them at all. 

I am dizzy. I am exhausted. I am sleepy. I am shaky. And I feel sorta sick to my stomach.  All I want to eat is a chef salad. 

What's that sound like? 

Wondering what's wrong with me here... Jonesie....


I would like to say that scales suck ass!  I have been perfect all week.  I have stayed within my pts., meaning last night, when we were at 54th Street, I didn't eat any fries, gringo dip and got a salad without cheese, chips or ranch which is what it comes with.  I stayed out of all the sweets and chips at the memorial service and only ate a small pc of veggie sandwich (which was really good, so not complaining too much).  And the scale this morning is up 2.8 lbs.  Now, I haven't gone to bathroom yet, but I don't think I can poop almost 3 lbs!  Sick!  I'm just frustrated a little.  I know 2nd week goes much worse than 1st week, but I have been doing so well that I was hoping to avoid 2nd week stagnancy.  No such luck.  I weigh in tomorrow, so today is only going to be fruit, veggies and lean meat with butt tons of lemon water.  Then I'll reset tomorrow.  It'll be fine.  I'm not losing my zeal, just venting ya'll.  I'll keep ya updated on the poop.  Keep your fingers crossed that my husband is right and I really am full of shit. 

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


Still the same as last week, but feeling great.  I'm not giving up this time!  Just call me Charlie Sheen because I will WIN!  Today is going to be a long hard day.  I'm dealing with one friend that is overly dramatic, creates relationships with men when there are none and bawling over a guy who's just using her for sex even though he was upfront about it in the first place, and another friend that just unexpectedly lost her dad and we're helping with the memorial service.  Emily will be right there with me this afternoon, but it won't be soon enough, because I'm left to deal with Kyla by myself! Sucks!  Oh well, she likes to eat.  You can't bitch if your mouth is full.  I'll throw chocolate chip cookies at her to keep her quiet.  Then she's eating them instead of me.  I have no desire to eat bad either which is really fucking nice!  Jonesie, I hope you have a wonderful day!  Talk soon.


Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Day 2...ugh

Ok, last night I powered thru and did not I had Burger King. I ate great lunch and fruit for breakfast....but damn cheeseburger! All because I was starving and unable to get home until 7:30 at night. I eat lunch at 11 so you can imagine how hungry I was, hence the bad Burger King stop. Bah. Oh well. I am going to try not to let it ruin my night. I am not going to let this be an excuse to binge later either. I'll let you know how it goes.


I've hit a wall.   I was up a little this morning and I've been within my points since I started.  I'm a little annoyed, but I can't get too bitchy since I'm down 6.2 (water, poop weight) since last Tues. I'm just venting.  I've done really well today so I'm going with it.  I am going to try to make time for 30 min. on the treadmill as soon as William leaves, after a quick cuppa coffee since I've been up since 3:00 (fangs go back in by the time the fam wakes up.)  I will let you know what the poop machine says tomorrow.  Good luck, Emily!  You've done it once, you can do it again! Go Jonesie, Go!  Having you two on board helps me a lot! 

Monday, May 2, 2011

My trial begins

Soooo, I did good SO Far! I ate well, walked for an hour, and am now sitting at the computer, sipping wine that is within my points....and telling myself I should just go to bed. In about an hour I am going to want to eat again. This is what I need/want to avoid. God give me strength to just GO TO BED!

Poop Rocks

No, I didn't poop rocks, Poop Rocks!  The past two days I have not went down, but I ate out every single day, got what I wanted (cut it in half and brought the rest home to Aiden) and haven't gained.  I survived the weekend making really good choices, drinking with friends and eating out and did not go over my points.  I'm pushing water hard today because I am bloated due to all of the sodium; I can see it in my hands.  I feel excellent and finally back in control of my diet.  I changed meetings too because I was tired of never making it to the meetings my friends were at and using that as an excuse to stay fat.  I'm doing what works for me and it is truly working for me!  Thank God!  I'm back, baby!  Can't wait to poop tomorrow morning and see what happens. : )

Sunday, May 1, 2011


You both suck! I guess I am going to have to get my ass into gear. Stupid dieting and stupid fat ass. Sucks...